Hello, this is Cassiel-zhu.
In July 2022, I moved from Chongqing to Shanghai to begin my career in international trade.
Since I was 19, I have been deeply influenced by the writer Sanmao. Her way of seeing the world shaped my understanding that life does not have to follow a fixed path. It can be a journey across cultures, places, and different ways of living.
In many ways, my decision to work in international trade was also inspired by her worldview. I wanted to see a larger world and understand how people live, think, and express themselves in different cultural contexts.
After starting my career, I stepped into the real structure of global business—clients, orders, cross-border communication, time differences, and cultural gaps. I gradually entered a more complex and realistic world shaped by international trade.
Over the past few years, I have traveled to Germany, France, Italy, Switzerland, and Mexico. Each country gave me a different rhythm of life, a different way of thinking, and a different way of expression. These experiences made me realize how vast the world truly is.
But beyond external experiences, the most profound transformation has happened internally.
I often feel that I shift between INTJ and INFJ. One side of me is rational, structured, and focused on efficiency and control. The other side is sensitive, emotional, and constantly reflecting on meaning, relationships, and identity.
I see myself as someone who is still in the process of self-repair and reconstruction.
Someone who is trying to step out of the emotional patterns of her original family, while at the same time learning to understand, accept, and eventually reconcile with them.
This blog is where I choose to document that process.
The content of this blog will primarily be written in English.
I will use English to record my life experiences, reflections, emotions, and personal growth. I will also share my experiences in international trade, as well as my observations of a globalized world.
For me, writing in English is not only a language practice. It is also a way of training my thinking, and a way to connect more deeply with a larger world.
Here, you will see my growth, my relationships, my confusion, and my transformation. You will also see the real journey of an ordinary person working within global trade.
At the same time, this blog is also my way of training consistency in expression, thinking, and output. It is not only a record, but a long-term process of self-construction.
If you are interested in international trade, English expression, or the journey of a young woman exploring both the world and herself, you are welcome to follow this space.
There are no perfect answers here—only real processes.
